Ectopic
If I could run back in time
and make a better choice
I wouldn`t let them take you
I`d hold on and make you stay.
You know that I still love
and you know I always will
I will never forget those changes
those signs that said I`m here.
Your body was still forming
yet your heartbeat was so strong
how I wish that I can hold you
and protect you on my own.
It`s almost three years since your heartbeat stopped
and I still cannot forget
I miss you and I love you
and that day I do regret.
slyvioletflower 
Very nice
Thanx Cynthia
so sad and so beautiful
Thanx Kyle it is sad and I will never forget it either.
your poem is a wonderful tribute to your sadness
It is the only way of expressing how I still feel eventhough it happened some time ago.
i think its pretty brave of you to blog about it – kudos
Dang, this is like wringing pain out of a cry towel.
Good work, but rough on the emotions.
Why do you say rough on the emotions? Words cannot even explain how I felt when it happened and I always feel like that was suppose to be my first born.
I can’t even imagine an adequate explanation, it would be too much like trying to stare into the sun from Mercury. The suggestion of what happened made my heart heavy and my stomach lump for what you or any woman goes through when losing a baby. No, I can’t imagine, and it gives me more respect for the strength of those who can and do.
Some people will never understand that feeling and can easily go for aborsion. I wish that aborsion can be banned. No matter how small a baby as long as their is a heartbeat their is a soul as well.
only you would know how it felt….but you have captured your real heart here…with a sad tune, you poured out your intense emotions…..bravo…:)
I tried. Thanx for the compliment
Powerful…moving! I read it and was almost didn’t want to make a comment, as i don’t think i have the words to express how deeply i was moved. Well done!!!
thanx
wow – that is strong!
Wow strong!
Wasn’t it Aquinas who speaks of the way not taken . Looking back , I have never had a life of my own . Nothing I’ve done in the past matters now because If I could turn back time … my life would be unrecognizeable . I wouldn’t even be the same person/ identity/ self image / life history . I would be Helene Tigh and the life I know would have never happened at all , like a bad dream .
beautiful and so sad,,,,
May the universe grant you all that you may wish for, to find the peace within. I admire your strength and courage. All the best!
Sweet, but sad poem. I’ve been fortunate and have not lost a child. I hope writing about it helps your heartache.
It sure makes it better.
Wow, very powerful. You’re very talented. Thanks for checking out my blog.
Its sombre and understated in its tone and that’s the reason I so much liked it. Departure can be a hard thing to write about and maybe that’s why words seem less able in conveying the same. Maybe you should write a new poem about reacquiring all that you loose and club it together with this one; create a dialectic of sorts I guess. Oh, and thank you for checking my blog out 🙂
Thanx for your opinion, but I dont wanna rewrite it to please anyone. Thats why it is my blog my words my poems my feelings. Thanx for checking out my blog.
Haha no problems. 🙂 I just thought it would have been nice to see how you could interpret the other end of the deal, is all 🙂 but then again to everyone his/her own ideas. Tc.
Im not offended just dont wanna change what Ive written. Thanx again for your honest comment.
Moving. Having known some dear friends who have lost children, I was compelled by this poem to revisit what it was like to see their sorrow and suffering in the event. It doesn’t matter how it happens, only that this precious life is no longer yours to cherish on earth. My heart goes out to you. A poem of great sorrow, and yet grace in its openness . . .
I love this (: Indeed a very nice poem, and on top of that, its like it is flowing with rhythm.
Soulfully sad 😦
Reblogged this on I AM THE FOX.
How do you comment on something so personal and painful. I can only say thank you for sharing something so deep, personal and obviously painful.
Nice work!
What an amazing thing to share. Thanks so much for writing.
beautiful; to have shared the heartbeat for awhile; and I am so sorry
Don’t rewrite it, it is a moment in time for you. Brave to put it on here. I wouldn’t be able to do it so well done.
Jim
thanx for you comment